Clare Kirwan
Return
It’s me. I’m back
with my eye in a sling
and one broken wing
like a raped angel.
With this old-fashioned mouth
full of missing words
(lost en route – used up,
worn out and given away.)
With snapshots of
the moon from different angles,
and a string of stray dogs
the length of a highway,
with a thing for stray gods:
bruised from falling,
and tattoos of heaven
cut from their skin.
I’m a gilded jigsaw
so pick up the pieces,
at least fill in the edges,
but leave the sky – it’s too hard.
I’m a yard sale on legs,
some parts haven’t worked for years:
going cheap this rusty heart,
this unwanted gift of love.
It’s me. I’m back,
one hand on the door,
one finger on the hair-trigger
smile I kept dry for you.
I’d have sent a postcard,
I’d have called,
but the long walk is no place
for instant reminiscences.
You make your own rules,
and these were mine:
never look forward, never look back,
keep throwing the stars
over your left shoulder
into the eye of the devil,
take what you need,
and leave what you can’t finish…