Seems like I've lived 12 lives in this one incarnation...I'm up for a few more. I have played many characters in my life: On the stage and screen you know, for money, with union dues, tax deductions, all that stuff for years and years. And then in all scenes of my life from dancer to janitor, wife to sister to “x” to assistant, teacher, student, mystic, laborer, poet, painter, athlete, starving artist, entrepreneur, beginner… That's the unifying theme: The variety of it all.
I am a very strong person in body and in soul. I am reliable, solid...somebody you can lean on. Which doesn’t mean I don’t know how to let someone take my weight while I catch my breath. That is a more recent talent, but I am taking to it like I was born to it. I am unafraid of what is sometimes the messiness of being…yours or mine. I’m a big cryer. Big laugher. Big cryer. You might say, vulnerable. I consider that one of my major strengths. I don’t move in straight lines; I am direct and honest without coloring in the lines. That can throw ya, it threw me until I learned to enjoy the ride. I am a passionate being...more than once described as a force of nature. A double Aries with a Scorpio moon, if you're into that sort of thing, which I'm not really, but whenever I say that about the double Aries thing, people who are into it, open their eyes a little wider and give an understanding nod. I’m intelligent and I am learning a lot. In some ways, I am a genius and in others not so much.
My favorite things that people have said to describe me, beside the force of
nature bit are: "You’re a Swiss army knife", "a poem that doesn't rhyme", "When I
got scared, I called you first," "an anchor and a guide," "don’t have a bad bone in
your body…" And my all time favorite great thing anyone has said about me: “I have
seen your sky from inside and out and it is blue.”
I haven't gotten too many bad reviews. The worst of course, I've given to
myself, but that doesn't happen much any more. Here are some of the things said
about me, to me…things that sort of stuck in my craw: "it's not cute to be spacey,"
(that was my big sister when I was 20 and newly sober) "you're nice to everyone but
me" (that was my x husband and he also said that about not having a bad bone in
my body and not rhyming…) "you sometimes move a little too fast for comfort,"
(Lloyd the Jazz Pianist) "how gullible can you be?" (big brother when I was 13)…
stuck in the craw…I have seen the craw from inside and out and it is not blue.
What I'm saying about me: I wouldn't be anybody else. Finally. Good thing
too, considering…
