hell week

Today sucked

Sun, 9 Mar 2008 13:53:30 -0600

So today I had a really shitty experience that sent me running home. I was in the bookstore just minding my own business, browsing through the psychology section (obviously) and this girl decided that it would be a good idea to strike up a convo with me. Well, let’s just say it didn’t go so well. I froze up like I always do, felt like the whole store was closing in on me, and I’m sure looking like a deer in headlights. So I quickly made up an excuse about some videotapes and went running out of the store like those suckers were REAL overdue. Of course I felt about . that small after the episode, and I haven’t wanted to get out and do anything since. I wish the doc could just prescribe up some pill to just make this shit all disappear.

woot

Thu, 6 Mar 2008 13:51:42 -0700

made it out of the house today....went to school and all was good. beers are a definite tonite

website + winning eleven = crazy

Wed, 5 Mar 2008 00:27:01 -0700

so whatever is going on here, I just did some searching and found this website with a whole bunch of crazy fools who don’t ever leave the house....so I signed up, kinda strange talking to them cause I feel a lot of the same shit they do....I must be going crazy or something
http://www.socialphobiaworld.com/postt16437.html

on another note, I still don’t have my fucking car back going on 7 days now? and what is better is they are charging me 20 bucks a day to keep it in impound, and I am broke as shit....this sucks

that and I fuckin SUCK at winning eleven, and I been playing it non-stop for the past week and STILL can’t win a damn game...another thing that is pissing me off, but at least my hand isn’t the size of a grapefruit anymore, my positive addition for the day haha

web surfun

Tue, 4 Mar 2008 00:21:54 -0700

soooo I couldn’t get myself out of bed today, and I missed my presentation for class :( this is fuckin weird, cause I don’t really feel like going outside and I keep thinking about how shitty it will be if I run into someone I know, I hate anxiety, I just want this feeling to go away so I can get out of this apt., but I can’t stop thinking about how much I don’t want to go outside....ahhhhhhhh!

I shoulda gone to school today, this is gonna fuck me up for the next couple of weeks....and I haven’t left my house for like 5 days now, I gotta get out of here...

well I made it down the stairs and there were a bunch of people standing outside on my front porch, so I turned around and went back upstairs...I’m pretty sure I have a problem at this point

couchin

Mon, 3 Mar 2008 00:16:30 -0700

didn’t make it to school today, I got pissed and punched a wall last night and my hand is all fucked up, I feel like I am stuck in this fucking apt, but I can’t even stomach the thought of having to deal with people...

I don’t even feel like leaving :( this doesn’t feel right, but whatever, I have a project due tomorrow that I need to finish up, so I am cutting this real short........

I guess I gotta head to the Dr. tomorrow and get this hand shit x-ray’d, it’s swollen up huge but my digi cam busted so I can’t take a picture of it...I really hope it’s not, cause I suck at writing with my left hand....that and playing video games with one busted hand is difficult, I haven’t won a game all day and that is pissing me off too