reiki meditation notes 8/26

i'd like help w/ transferring to healer lifestyle and writer lifestyle wi/income taking care of me totally plus more to be philanthropic.  in the reiki problem solving meditation i saw mom, then grandma [sylvia] then grandma [ethelind] then Taj, then Sojourner Truth. i saw the mothers when looking in the pool  in the clearing. i felt myself trying to make out the face of Nancy after whom I am named. i thot about what my grandmoms could help me with and cant think of anything they did that wd be an example to me except to BE. for mom to show up is interesting since she always supports me. therefore i must accept her as a guide when it resonates as such for me. Truth speaks for herself.