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now i get it. there's energy that doesnt want things to change at home. perhaps this is why i cant get a contractor to commit to helping me.  even when they say they're coming, they dont come. where do i do this in my life? come but not come or not get there.  but if you call me spur of the moment, i'm good for deciding YES i will do whatever you just asked. this is what life needs right now and i can provide. so the contractors perhaps do the same thing, do not keep the commitments they make to themselves, evidenced as me in the moment, and do whatever caught theire fancy in their moment. forgetting what niamo needed.  who am i forgetting when i go off and 'help' someone who was not on my path. from the reiki protection cd--all that glitters isn't gold.

 

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i am at peace calling people who i think have large sums of money--as peaceful and confident in calling people who i think have modest amounts of money to give.  this because i am present to feeling awed by people i think are very wealthy and the power i think or feel they have due to this money. my stomach started to turn when i thought about calling them. and i notice no similar stomach tightness when i thought of calling or began to call people of so-called lesser means.  i too am a philanthropist at heart and want to continue giving to cause transformation where it shows up powerfully such as at the Summit.  and i am present in this moment to my life as Summit, this current work as Summit, given to facilitate powerful transformation in raising scholarship and program and professorship money for City College.