Drops of Jupiter

Hi HOWIE: I did have a great weekend in spite of family matters. They say that what doesn't kill you makes you strong. I truly believe that. I also believe that the truth shall set you free. But no one said that it wasn't going to be painful, however insightful. I am not hinting for a comment from you; only expressing myself this morning :) Anyways, I am not blogging about that today. I have had enough drama for one day and quite frankly I need a day to just relax and reflect. Today is going to be that day.

In answer to your question: "Am I wrong?" My answer is "Please continue to comment on my blog but I can not assure you that you won't be verbally attacked, as you say, or otherwise, although I think the latter if nothing else will not be breached: You are protected yes? And you do have carte blanche from CARR - yes?" I too am thirsty for insights and knowledge from those that are aliens. I am full of questions, as usual, and unfortunately I have offended some in my asking. But I am only a human seeking for more truth as to what is out there, and to be enlightened and told the truths about us here.

In regards to aliens, I wasn’t sure if I even thought about aliens inhabiting our planet however, I had a sense that amongst all of those planets and solar systems out there, we could not possibly be the only ones. I could not fathom that concept and if I may say so, I do think that it is very unworldy and presumptuous of others to think that we are the only civilization. Not even sure when I came to this conclusion; I have felt so strongly about this for so long. Sorry readers if I am addressing some of you but I must speak my mind. I had questions but I didn’t give much thought to it. I never contemplated aliens in a serious sense. Do you contemplate if air really exists? That is how I felt about other life forms; they just are. I just knew it in my heart and mind that aliens existed, regardless of the lack of hard evidence or our government’s constant denial. I didn’t question their existance but I sure wanted to meet some!

I still seek to take a trip out there myself someday, one where I have total recall. Would I not give more than a glance back were I to leave forever? I have never been a person where absense makes the heart grow fonder. I am more of an out of sight, out of mind kind of girl. This has nothing to do with leaving the ones that I love. Doug knows this of me; it is just how I am. Whenever Doug is leaving for a business trip, or myself for that matter, I always get really stressed out at the anticipation and the thought of him or me leaving. Those last few hours are the worst, but then once he walks out that door or once I am on that plane, I am totally relaxed. It is almost as if I know that there is no turning back, I can't do anything about it now , so I might as well enjoy myself and where I am at. However the big difference is that I know one of us is going to come back. I think it is more difficult on the one who is left behind in the everyday normal life. Still...and even more so lately, my desire is stronger. Doug says, "That if it wasn't for me..."....hmmm I think I better end that sentence right there and let him finish it if he chooses.

It reminds me of a vision of mine....a strong vision that always brings me so much peace when I think of it. This vision comes to my minds eye when I am questioning life here and all that this world is...when I am yearning for a place abundant in love and beauty and eminently peaceful. Is there such a place? Let me share with you my small vision of one...”I am on some mountain top, not on Earth, and it is bright and clear and I can't or don't see any of the terrain - it really is not important. My arms are spread wide and high as if I am embracing all that there is. My eyes are wide open and a huge smile is on my face and all I feel is joy and warmth, and tears..happy tears spilling from my eyes There is no fear, no destruction. I feel as if I am home as I gaze out and see a beautiful world...3 suns are setting...glorious.” I am a sun goddess in the sense that I love the sun. Everyone who knows me well knows that I am much happier in a place where I am hot and the sun is shining! Threfore a planet with 3 suns would be my ultimate. It is a vision that I sometimes call forward when I am dealing with things on this planet that are petty and unimportant. And for some reason Train's song "Drops of Jupiter" plays in my mind - just love that song - love the words! (“...Dance along the light of daaayy...” “....and did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?”) It brings me strength, and as unreligious as I am, it solidifies my faith. In what I am not really sure nor do I think it matters. Hearing that song immediately brings me to this space of feeling. I have not really shared that vision with anyone other than my husband...not that it is sacred or anything special, I just have not. But I guess now I have shared it with everyone; that is everyone reading this :)

TAO: Hi Racime: Not sure if you’re around....I too would like to hear more about the EMPEROR. Where is he now?

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