There are three driving forces that have created a painter of me: family, religion and travel. Each aspect is narrated, purged or felt through the painting process. Visible brush marks and the saturated colour, aid in expressing thoughts on unattainable desires, spirituality and anxiety. I include photos and found objects to create a history and energy that is from something outside myself, yet has much to do with my own life and subconscious.
My newest body of work is a return to the human figure, accompanied by the collage elements that I have found useful in portraying the subconscious. I have recently become a mother which has changed my life, yet has not changed the woman who still deals with anxieties about identity, personal accomplishments and with the perception of others. The ideals of my youth clash with the responsibility of procreation and adulthood. Motherhood creates extremes: blissfully happy while feeling exhausted and miserable; remorse for the death of freedom yet dreading the day one’s child leaves the “nest”; a pendulum of empathy and apathy. The confusion of the onset of motherhood is relayed through the painting process and reflected in the faces that I paint.
