LOOP is in the conception stage.

LOOP is the shedding of Our family’s unnecessary material possessions and “hitting the road”.

 

    I am quickly realizing that I want to live the American Dream of a full time rver NOW, while I am still young, while my children are still young, while my husband is still young. I want the life of a traveler so bad, I can taste it. I go through my days with waves of anticipation that wash over me. I get little flashes of Our family playing in wide open grassy fields, filled with wild flowers and butterfly’s fluttering around us. Sometimes, I wake up and find myself staring at the ceiling in disbelief that we are still in this tiny 2-bedroom apartment. Don’t get me wrong! Our life is good. We are not rich but we are not dirt poor. We live paycheck to paycheck, sometimes a little behind, but there is always food on the table, warm water in the bathtub, clean clothes to wear. We’ve got cable TV, and video games to play. The shelves are covered with DVD’s and music cd’s. We have the Internet and a great computer. Of course, the later is a family necessity of choice since Our children are enrolled in an online home school academy.

    I don’t drive a car; we don’t go to movie theaters.. ever, and we never go to Baskin Robins for ice cream. All these things are too expensive for Our blood but we don’t crave them anyway.

                                    I still can’t help but feel deprived some how.

It’s because with all that we do have, it’s directed in the wrong direction. We don’t want to live the 9 to 5. We don’t want to be bound to one place. My husband is much more accepting of it than I am. I am a free bird and I am feeling trapped.