Monday, March 3, 2008
Cheating and Mommy Guilt
I got the call and I am interviewing for the DHS position on Thursday! Shoot me some good vibes because I’m feeling pretty good about it. Oh, but now comes the Mommy Guilt.......
My friend Gretchen posted a great proposal on the subject, and I wish I could take her words to heart, but I’m having a hard time. Having a job means leaving my kids, leaving my kids means that Matt will be a stay-at-home-dad, having Matt home means that I will no longer be in control of my nest, and finally, not being in control of my nest means that I will feel out of control. I don’t like feeling out of control. Will my kids know that I love them just as much even though I won’t be there to make their lunches, or drive them to school, or tuck them in for naps? I know they will in my rational mind, but my emotional mind I am already dripping with Mommy Guilt. The most of which has to do with the fact that I will have to stop breast-feeding Lola. Yeah, I could pump, but Lola is SO sensitive to EVERYTHING I eat that it is really hard for me to make her happy. I would love to have my body back, but that makes me feel guilty too. Any words of wisdom out there?
Speaking of guilt, I cheated on my hairdresser of 8 years over the weekend. She was booked for the next 4 weeks straight but I wanted a haircut now. I called Tony and Guy after reading about how they were the place to go for cheap, good cuts. What’s a cheap haircut to you guys? For me it’s under $30. Anything more than that and you’re getting into the expensive category. Imagine my surprise when I headed to the counter after the cut and I was asked to fork over $54!!! FIFY FOUR DOLLARS! For a haircut! I couldn’t believe it.
BTW: No word from the caseworker for the boy mentioned in the last couple of posts. I’ve even started leaving messages for the caseworkers supervisor. I’m irritated.
