Blenk’s World
About Me
54 and soon to be 55.............................
First thoughts
Not very good at family life......
Thankfully I have a very bad memory, I find it very hard to remember most of my past, some would call it a selective memory, me I know it isn't, it really is a very bad memory. Every now and then I have a small flashback and remember something funny. Very rarely remember anything bad or sad
I find it easy to forget the hard and bad times, and let me tell you, I have had more than my fair share.
Let me try and recall some........
I can’t remember much of my childhood, serious head injury when I was three, so no early years up here in this brain of mine. So let me try and think back to where it all started for me, and see if I can recall some memories.
I left school at 15 with no qualifications, left home at an early age, married for the first time at 18 (lasted 6 months). I joined the army and had my 21st birthday in there, stuck it out for 6 months, I couldn't stand being told what to do and still can’t ! I have lived in a cupboard at a friends flat, have 2 ex-wives, a few ex-girlfriends and I brought up 2 boys on my own. First of all in a bed sit, with a shared bathroom, then a small flat. I struggled with social security to get enough to live on and to cloth my boys and put food on the table, while my ex-family didn’t want to know. Close "friends" lived at home with their parents, never paying rent, having their washing and ironing done for them their bed made and meals cooked. They went to college, got degrees to get steady jobs that they hated, while I worked all the overtime I could. I also worked behind bars and driving taxi's in the evenings to pay my bills - oh what fun days they were.
I have had many jobs but I have never been sacked by one of them. If I like where I am and I’m happy I will stay and work very hard for my employer, however, if I start to feel unhappy then I look for the next challenge, I have worked at too many places with people who hate their jobs and make it uncomfortable for people around them, always saying how they hate the boss or the conditions they have to work in, the day is too long, the weekends are too short, they don’t get paid enough. Strange but they have worked there for 10 or more years, getting more and more miserable.
You have all met people like them and probably work with some of them now. I want to tell them to leave, find a better job, one they will enjoy and be happy in but they are so busy wallowing in their own self pity, but then again, they would probably make a lot more people miserable, so I move and let them stew in their own misery and self pity. I can do without sad people in my life.Your a long time dead, don’t waste the precious small amount of time we have here.
STOP, enough, Now I remember why I don't want to remember
Moving on.
I have a very positive outlook on life, I see good in most things and people, but I don't suffer fools very well. I can't bring myself to be blunt and hurt them, I just move on.
Friends:
I have not had many that you could call “close friends”, most seem all right for a start but then the fun soon runs out and they either start to use you, or call you behind your back.
Most off all, I prefer the company and friendship of women, they don’t want to prove something all the time, at least the women from around my generation (mid 1950’s to late 60’s) don’t want to, and they are a lot better to look at than an unshaved face and beer bellies. Big problem with that is, you have to be careful that you don’t get too friendly with an individual one, as you can end up marrying them or living with them, then it’s all down hill from there. It’s a shame it took me so long to learn that rule, however, I had a lot of fun finding that out. I’m surprised there aren’t a lot more little Blenk’s running around.
Some people I have known (some I even thought were friends) think it’s really funny to take the mickey. This is because I try to help everyone, if only they knew the hard times, lonely nights and days that I have lived through and I can still walk through life with a friendly smile on my face, when all you are is a good person that tries to help out anyone that asks for help or assistance, doesn’t matter if they are a friend, the boss or the cleaner, I will always try and help them.
I think this sort of person is the saddest of all, and not the sort of person you really want to be friends with. I look forward to forgetting them!.
Even after reading this, I know that some people will still not think before they say anything to another person (their stupidity makes me really angry).
Am I that much different to other people. I think before I say something, I am also very aware of my surroundings. I call it self awareness and what people see when I am out and about.
You won’t catch me eating or chewing gum with my mouth open, spitting in the street or swearing out loud in public. I try very hard not to offend anyone, its my choice I just don’t want to do that sort of thing.
Wives:
Fortunately my latest and final wife, Karen, is my best friend and understands me (most of the time), we have lots of laughs together and enjoy each others company. I look forward to seeing her every morning, hearing her sing in the shower and how daft she is with the cats. I like looking after her (she is a little delicate on the surface, but quite a little toughie when she needs to be)
She is very much like me in a lot of ways, especially how we both treat other people with respect, however she is a lot more private than me. I am very open with my ideas and emotions, I like to go out and socialise, she likes to stay in, I like sci-fi , she likes romantic comedies, and so on.
The list could go on but why should I. We love each other and we put up with each others quirks. This helps make for a good relationship and not a boring one
Living alone:
I suppose, because I have lived on my own from a very early age, and had to fend for myself, I have become a little selfish with my personal space. When I want to do something, buy something or go somewhere, I just do it. If others want to come along then great, but don’t like anyone to interfere or I will do it alone and not give it another thought. I think I have always been a bit of a loner as I really enjoy my own company, nobody to upset or ask if it’s all right to do something or go somewhere (strange that, as I like to be surrounded by people and act the fool).
Dogs.
Had a couple of dogs, best one I remember was Satan, a big German shepherd, went everywhere with me,
down the pub or just out for a walk we were inseparable. Another called Digger an old English sheepdog, and Lady a big standard poodle.
Cats.
Again had several cats. Sidney an agoraphobic cat, Bebe a ginger tom with tunnel vision, Big cat and little cat a pair of strays. Now, Cyan and Cassidy a pair of Siamese seal points.
Fish.
Yes I even kept fish once.
Cars.
Again had several cars, I remember an old Rover 2000 with white leather seats and wooden dash. An automatic white paint job.The thing broke down 2 weeks after I bought it and I couldn’t afford to get it fixed!
Never been one for sporty cars, I liked big estate cars, you can go on holiday with one and not have to get a B&B just take a sleeping bag and the world is your oyster!
Now we have one of those new Beetles, 1900 TDI, fantastic car but a bit limited on space in the back.
I love computers.
Think I have had a computer for over 25 years now ;lots of different ones.
From the early Spectrums, Amega’s, various PC’s and now a big iMac with 2 large screens, running Parallels for my old PC programmes, 1.5 terabit's of memory, 4 gig ram, a £4000 printer and a Wacom graphics tablet.
I am all self taught, never had a lesson in my life, had my own small printing business and worked at a couple of graphic design studios impressing my employers with what I could do with the programmes they had. We are the children of the baby boomer times and have been brought up with what must be the biggest changes in our history, from TV to space travel, the computer age and world travel, we don’t take it for granted, we still get a buzz from it.
The story will continue!