I feel kinda frustrated and I’m not sure why. I think it’s because I’m soon leaving the bad school and I’m annoyed that I haven’t been able to do anything significant for the children. I was thinking about it on my way home on Monday. I haven’t been there long, admittedly, but I have been restricted severely by the English teachers’ lack of attention and critical eye. As a result, the only good I have managed to do is to have a couple of interesting conversations, out of lesson time, and play with the kids but none of that is going to stick in their minds for years is it? I wish I could take the good kids with me. Never mind. I have had fun playing. The students, especially the first graders, seem to take great delight in me copying the catchphrases and actions of their favourite TV celebrities. They also loved it when we had an impromptu gun fight in the class (at lunch) and they saw my gunshot reactions. It’s inherent in every male, I think (as Spaced taught us),  but maybe not if they enjoy it so much.

I’m also a bit annoyed that the days have become a trial in escaping the heat. I’m not bothered about the upcoming holidays because it will be even hotter but I have air conditioning. At school, they don’t bother, the cheap gits. So I have 11 more days of sweltering. It really has been hard the last few days. On Sunday, apparently it got up to 37’C but I was inside all day with the air con so I have no idea. All I know is that my washing, which was dripping, dried in a little over 20 minutes. Though, Monday it was very hot, but not humid. Tuesday, it didn’t seem as hot but it was really humid in the morning and then today it was humid and completely still. It was raining! If a slight bit of wind would just have blown some of the cool outside air through the open windows it would have been fine, but inside the school it was sticky and nasty. I hope my good school has some kind of cooling down option because it will be even hotter there. The classes have more hot bodies crammed into a stuffy room. My only option at the moment is to go and splash water over my arms and face between classes. I must look into a better way to cool down.

On the flip side of the coin there has been plenty of good. I am in regular contact with one of my friends back home again. I’ve also sent an email to the seemingly perfect girl I discovered at the weekend. I am thusly waiting to be shot down, thinking of all the cool things I could have said. Hopefully she won’t keep me waiting too long. I waited to make contact because I had to renew my membership with the penpal site and I wanted to write the email when I was feeling particularly enthusiastic. Well, I wasn’t completely worn out last night so I went for it. The strange thing is that I really don’t mind putting myself out there. If she’s interested, great, I’ll be really happy and we’ll see where it goes, but if she isn’t bothered then I think I’ll be okay with it; it’ll just be back to square one. We’re all adults here (apart from Lil’ Baby Chops Ramkin Killer III - down boy!) so it’s okay.  But if she says yes, and things go well, then I’ll turn into one of those slimy gits with an asian girlfriend. Hmmm, I may have to be the exception. I don’t know why people with a liking for asian girls get a bad rap. In fact, it is very odd. People (and by people, I mean ‘women’) normally rip on guys for liking girls with huge boobs or the typical bimbo figure and Asian girls are anything but that. They are slim, petite, generally sweet and kind, yet “people” still rip on guys who like them for being some kind of nerd. No one’s ever happy. I just think everyone likes to tread on somebody.