I feel like I shouldn’t trust my judgement when I am sad or worn out because it is inevitably negative, like a man teetering on the edge of the cliff who has just been handed the weeks shopping. However, I seem to be tired and worn out a lot lately. What happens if I get more tired and my negative judgement becomes my only judgement? What then? Do I still ignore it? Who knows. I just had a great week last week and the tiredness got to me this weekend. I hate it when that happens but what are you going to do? If only I ever thought about this stuff when I was happy I might be able to pass a sensible, unbiast judgement on the subject, but I’m always too busy being happy.

Despite extreme tiredness and negativity I did have a good day today. For one, I was at elementary school, which is like an automatic injection of happy. Secondly, I had my first Christmas lesson and the nice surprise of my Junior High first grade teachers paying a visit so they could spy on next year’s lot. It was nice to see them. Like I’m not the only one shipped out to all sorts of places, but that it’s part of a larger network. After school, I had a great talk with a few of the kids too. They were asking me about TV shows, anime, manga and basically saying any Japanese word to see if I could translate it. A lot, I couldn’t but we always manage to communicate well. I was left feeling pretty happy, and then I went home, tried to do some Christmas shopping but ended up buying two CDs for myself! Oh well, I’ll just not buy the traditional celebratory pair of CDs I get for completing the Christmas shopping. Though I need to get a move on if I am going to post my presents in time. It’s hard to decide what to buy though.

On the way home I stopped off in my friend’s ramen shop. I had dinner and he let me put one of my new CDs on. It was pretty cool. Now, I’m home and just tired. A bit annoyed that all I’m going to do is be tired and go to bed, but what are you going to do? If I don’t get rest, I’ll be like this every day.