I exist mainly online. I am not a huge presence but I am more effective there. Everyone I know, and a huge bunch of strangers, knows what I am doing because I write about it for all to read here. I make more friends online than I do off. I work, connected to the online world and research through it. All my lessons are based on ideas I find online. My writing exists more online than in paper form. Funny, isn’t it? But I guess it’s because it is a lot easier to do what you want in the virtual world. In the real world there are no end of problems, red tape and confidence issues that get in the way.

That’s one reason I get frustrated about girls. I’ve managed to contact a lot of people online, but in real life I get nervous before going on a few dates. Maybe, because they are so rare. When I think about it, in point of fact, I’ve never really been on proper dates until now. So, I guess it is no wonder, and I can only hope it gets easier... or that it won’t have to because I’ll meet someone soon. It’s more frustrating being in Japan too. In England, I didn’t mind because there were hardly ever any attractive people around (for me), yet in Japan there are so many. So I hope this is the darkest hour before the dawn. The dawn being a cute Japanese girl with long black hair and eyes you could drop a penny in and never hear the ‘plop’.... probably because it would be an “Ow! What are you dropping pennies on my eye for?”... or “いたい！どうした？”

So yes, today I have had a nice day just being at home, but being productive too. I have tidied my flat and I have spent a good few hours drawing pictures for my Halloween lesson while Firefly plays in the background. It is a joy. Through the joys of facebook, I got to hear about other people’s great Halloweens too. I wish I was in a place where there were people dressing up and going out. Hopefully this will be the last month of money being tight. So I can go out and enjoy holidays from now on, or visit bigger cities. But, oh wait, the next big holiday is Christmas and that isn’t celebrated here at all. Though Christmas Eve is actually a kind of Valentine’s Day for the Japanese.